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Ludovic Bellodonne

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[07 Oct 2006|05:40pm]

walking with the waking clouds.
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[05 Oct 2006|07:32pm]
i wish this would stop.
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[03 Oct 2006|11:59pm]
K. E. A. J. R. always R.

i hope you will all be fine.
::all the dyed linen::

[01 Oct 2006|10:28am]
two days ago, the sky. i am not wrong.

moths. synchronicity.
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[17 Sep 2006|03:02pm]

dear world, we are terrible and bent of the resuscitation of all things.
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[13 Sep 2006|07:56pm]

this is where i keep all the gently fading things,
where all is warm and floating deeply,
submerged in past and bygone movements-
the dreams dreamt to keep light alive
and all the cold with living men.
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[10 Sep 2006|03:55am]
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[ much ado about the nothingness with E
[ neko case neko case neko case
[ pSntnEg
[ nutriphish cd, for the happy times, every time
[ red flowers/ blue hair / black coat and winter clothes at the first sign of cold weather, finally, hurray, thank god.
[ harry potter en francais
[ crush, richard siken
[ school
[ oscar kyhlberg
[ i really need to sleep, not artificially
[ butterflies outside
[ flcl, furi kura
[ my bed is so comfortable :]
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[05 Sep 2006|05:27pm]
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fuck this

& fuck this

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yann tiersen is god.
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[04 Sep 2006|11:55pm]
"Another suicide on the 405
The Black Dahlia, shes smiles and smiles
Its the same old town that bled her dry
One more starlet one more time
Bound to make it do or die
Talk a walk to Bonnie Brae
Try and wash these dreams away
They tell me L.A is beautiful when it rains"

neko case, in california

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dear anne beall:

thank you.

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[27 Aug 2006|11:25am]
emails from nathalie:

Bonjour Logan,
J ai pris grand plaisir a te parler, tu as beaucoup de talent! Le francais n est pas une langue facile....
Ok il faut qu on s organise pour ton voyage en France, j avais commencer a faire quelques recherches sur les visa etudiants, et je vais m y remettre.

Qu en est ce que tu veux aller en France? En septembre 2007? Ou ca? Paris? Combien de temps? 1 an?
Je te tiens au courrant de mes resultats et toi de meme. Laisse moi voir ce que je trouve et je te l envoie.



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10 months. :]

thank you crab-boy and greasy-hair and penny lane and pêche and liebestraum.

& this sentiment:

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[18 Aug 2006|01:20am]

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it was really ignorant of me to think that anything would change.
10 months and counting- go.

rhaea will you please come home. please please please.
the old tricks aren't working anymore! aha!

please. its like that time with caruso and those pinstripe pants walking away from those buildings and i can't go through that again. so please please come home. please be wonderful and believe in love with me and know that ideals always! through constant vigilance! is the only way. please. i've exhausted every resource- there were wild sunflowers growing alongside the road! and nothing here. its like dinner with rib sandwiches and that time when kate and curtis were talking about suicide- exactly like that. or when it's five o'clock and the sun does that thing where it makes you cry. please come home.
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[28 Jul 2006|11:09pm]
good bad worse better worst. oh the sweet progression.

at least paul simon sang "bridge over troubled water".
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[23 Jul 2006|10:37pm]
dear phoebe:

1.) read franny & zooey by jd salinger [if you haven't already].
2.) tell krissie i love her and miss her and that we need to move to somewhere cold very soon.

thank you for your comment. since you don't have a LJ account i figured this would be the best way to reply. i feel contrived lately, so its nice to hear that someone likes my pedantic whining. :]

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all i seem to do lately is rend people with these cutting words, and, as a result, have created this clusterfuck situation of bad things i thought i was too nimble and glib to avoid. the slander is catching up with me, despite the fact that its all headed toward dissolution in less than a year- nearer the end it feels more like the anxiety of the beginning.


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again, unrelated:

sorry to the person, to whom i have selfishly considered not as badly off as you actually are, or something. i am simply the biggest asshole ever and haven't done my best, at all. jesus, i'm sorry. elocution has been lost. i'm sorry about the movie and all that and not knowing what to say. i just want to go back to when all of this wasn't surfaced or wasn't even around- i have no clue what's happening anymore.
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[22 Jul 2006|04:54pm]
i dont want to go back to three years ago. it was awful. and i can feel the sentiment building in everyone and the house is where i stay because its one big daze. africa in two weeks though.
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[20 Jul 2006|11:25pm]
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[06 Jul 2006|12:34pm]

[ venice beach with cousins and things ][ oh the insomnia! ][ welcome to the monkey house by vonnegut ]
[ still the uncertainty and the envy and the absence of reason ][ elaine is back from hungary ]
[ everlasting pancakes ]

bought the buck 65 album i didn't own. hurray. secret splendor seems like eons ago.

"not bad, not bad, not bad at all i tried your shoes on
cigarettes and crucifixes, ingmar bergman, alphonse mouzon
really boring modern music, really boring modern girl
get me out of here, i’m drowning, i don’t like this modern world
anti-intellect and marketing, pretty, pretty, who needs talent
crying eyes, we’re so outnumbered, fight for the right to remain silent
what do i know, who am i, my two left feet my big dumb face
i’d do the same if i had the chance, cheat the system, rig the race
it’s all one big misunderstanding, inside out i turn my coat
don’t look back don’t move a muscle, one false move that’s all she wrote
zoom, kick, persuasion, tech, zoom, kick, persuasion, tech
zoom, kick, persuasion, tech, tech, tech, tech" - b65, blood of a young wolf
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[03 Jul 2006|12:21am]
german cousins here which is nice because they're different perspectives on things.

sufjan stevens - october 9th

david bazan - july 23rd


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"I got dosed by you and
Closer than most to you and
What am I supposed to do
Take it away I never had it anyway
Take it away and everything will be okay"

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there's this thing about white strings in the proximity to wrists and i wish i knew what i was doing or what people were doing or if it had meaning or was it just there to keep it attached? or what it would be like if it rained four hundred days straight and so many white flowers grew that everything made sense sense sense the material comforts are failing more and more often- even the books err now and again. my eyes are so fucked up.

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semiconductor films - nanowebbers

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[26 Jun 2006|09:13am]

art is where we find the solace other humans cannot provide.

photo by berenbeim.

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the dream i had last night was good. felt good. i flew around a surreal town with lots of people and remember that something was going on, slightly dark but good.

leaving town soon. hopefully.

i wish it would rain. i'll go shower in lieu.
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[19 Jun 2006|06:36pm]

to the summer of elitist isolation

i pledge:

[ x ] painting
[ x ] greenaway with berenbeim
[ x ] coffee
[ x ] not seeing people
[ x ] not hearing people
[ x ] not being with people
[ x ] not thinking about people
[ x ] not calling people
[ x ] not writing people
[ x ] not crying to people
[ x ] not laughing with people
[ x ] not losing sleep over people
[ x ] not meeting new people
[ x ] not opening to people
[ x ] not loving people
[ x ] not hating people
[ x ] not being jealous of people
[ x ] disjointing oneself from the world
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[13 Jun 2006|11:40am]

flowers from sollie.
school is over.
party this friday-
with fire
and pancakes
and the person.
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